Okay. So it's only been a few months.
I'm currently participating in a Fiber Creativity Course called Journey to the Golden Fleece, written by Arlene Thayer and Suzy Brown. While I don't know either, both are well respected voices in the Fiber Arts community. It's been great. I paid the sign up fee, and promptly pretty much fell off the face of the earth. We have 6 weeks to finish each module, and I'm pretty sure this one is due in less than 7 days. That being said, I did manage to get the module 1 workbook printed out a while ago. It's just sat in yet another pile of yarn in my room.
So tonight I sat down and decided it would be a marvelous idea if I was able to get things sorted. I'd already read through the synopsis of where the course was going to take us, and watched many many many different and lovely yarns posted to the Facebook group page. Don't talk to me about the forum that's on the official website, I went there I think twice, it scared me both times, (only because it was going to take brain power to figure out how to post things) and so I haven't been back since. Well, that and I've been insanely busy and yet feeling like I'm getting nothing done.
That being said. I am in the middle of prepping the fiber to spin. I've got 6 rolags ready and waiting. Well- technically 5 because I spun the one up just to make sure that this was the direction I wanted to go with my yarn. And it is. It's definitely different than what I'd necessarily pictured in my head. In fact, as I was jotting down notes in the workbook I thought 'dang it, I really wish I had some locks that I could dye into the right shades and all that' oh dear..... but turns out, when it all comes down to it, this yarn wants to be a relatively normal yarn- not so artsy or anything like that. Because that's not who I am, or rather, who I was.
This is my beginning. I decided to pick the time in my life as I was preparing for marriage. Because really, that's pretty much the linchpin in this 'Adventure' I'm on.
My adventure is one with a heartache that isn't resolved, and I thank God every day that my story is not over yet. Because as I've gone through this, I've been able to find the places where I've needed to be. By accident or grand design, I know I'm doing the right things. It's taken over 4 years and a lifetime to get here, but I've had greater peace in the last few months, than I've known the whole rest of our marriage.
I am married to the most amazing, wonderful man. He also happens to be my best friend. I'd recommend everyone marry someone who is their best friend. It makes things a lot easier :)
We both come from big families, and both really want children.
What you might not know, is that in both of our families, we have women who suffer from Endometriosis.
I hate that word by the way. I hate what it means, and the heartache and pain it represents. For the longest time, and I do mean quite a long while- I was great at denying the fact that I more than likely had it. Nevermind the fact that I was down for DAYS each month with debilitating pain, had some of the craziest hormonal mood swings, and oh yeah, it runs in the family.
I'd decided that I was scared of it, and so that wasn't me. Disassociation. You've heard of it.
That was me.
But that's another story. This yarn, this module, is addressing the start of my call to adventure. The moment we leave what once was, for something that will never be the same. That's what this yarn is going to represent.
It is late, I am tired, Dear Boy is already asleep, and there is no way I'm going to be able to finish this yarn tonight, so I'll have to include more details about it later.
Sleep well world, and may your dreams be those that are full of hope and wonder.
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